Thursday, August 11, 2011

Why I Feel Powerful Lately

I don't know what it is. For some reason I've just felt powerful lately.

Like there's this energy, this force helping me...

It's coincided with a decision to try something socially drastic (for me anyways). I have determined to no longer be inhibited by social insecurities. No more timidity. No more deep-rooted shyness dogging my every step. Imagine a world where you can simply exist as yourself with whomever you meet. You are just pure indiluted you no matter where you are.

I think I'm getting closer... though I'm still not sure if I've pinpointed it.

(Can you see me grinning? (Trust me, it's there.) I've been grinning since it came in the mail. Happy Graduation!)

Suddenly avenues are opening up for one of the most precious commodities this world has to offer... friends. In order to make friends you have to form acquaintances. And in order to form acquaintances you have to be willing to interact with other people in positive circumstances, without the muffling impact of your tight social bubble that keeps you from ever hearing what goes on outside.

Is that it?

(Thanks and happy partings to the sweet aunt who left us her tv! (she's in Texas now) I turn the volume way down and the speakers are still rumbling through our entire apartment. poooweeer.)

ooooohh. the power.

It's like waking up after years being only half-awake. (My brother went through this same process in Jr. High or Elementary School. I could have saved a lot of time if I'd just made this determination sooner.)

Friday, July 15, 2011

What Does a Week Without Mommy Look Like?

It is an often frightening thing.

Just kidding. This is the hairstyle courtesy of my little nubbins of a daughter. She's actively seeking new clients. :)

Here are a few more choice moments...

She fits right through those bars. I could only get my head through.

This is more emblematic than anything else. This represents what Jane has been doing this whole week so far. Running away from Daddy.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

How Powdered Sugar Has Transformed My Life

Lo what whispered mist appears
in sabbath morning's halls...

There was a time when I didn't do pancakes. Didn't do French Toast for the life of me unless I plastered butter only over the top. Wouldn't dream of doing German pancakes with any degree of satisfaction save a full belly. All that's changed.

Here's this morning's battlefield.

Powdered sugar has brought pancakes and more back to my life. I am a changed man... a better man.

And just to prove that it really does exist, I've captured on film one of the rarest occurences known to man. What you're about to see will shock and amaze, and maybe even frighten you.

This is no camera trick. This is real. What you are looking at is powdered sugar mist. It danced around us this morning. It was beautiful.

Happy Sabbath everybody, and happy 4th of July!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Happy Wedding! Happy Life!

So a few weeks back we had the opportunity to see my brother and his wife get married, and what a great occasion! This is following their ceremony.

We had a somewhat different experience just the other day that while oddly familiar, held some clear variations. See the same moment following the ceremony of my sweet grandma and her husband.

It was funny!

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Life on the Edge

One of my favorite cartoons is Recess. I never particularly enjoyed the story, except where it brought in the kindergarteners. The portrayal of the kindergartners was priceless, and has endeared that show to me forever through a surprising and delightful depiction.

They always enter the scene en masse, vicious and dangerous, and they strike fear into the hearts of the entire school.

My older brother as a young man was placed one Sunday in charge of the nursery. The adults had a meeting. He documented the experience in a drawing.

It's become a legend in my family.

To all of you out there that served time, here's to you.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Lost Laundry Scrolls

These are some of my most prized possessions. From before I left on my mission in 2003 I have kept these notebooks of scripture, religious, and personal thoughts on anything and everything. The notebooks are used to remember the ideas that throughout my life pass through my mind and disappear.

These are what I call the Lost Laundry Scrolls.

This first one was tragic, until I got the idea to re-wet it and form it back into a manageable shape. I could then go back with a fine edge and work the pages open to type out everything inside. It was a miracle.

The second is a more tragic loss. This notebook was about half full of scriptural insights and ideas when it recently went through a cycle.

(it almost seems like I see writhing shapes within the deformed pulp, trapped in the throes of a soapy death)

It makes me think about how valuable ideas can become when we start to treasure them up. Ideas passed through my mind for my entire life as fleeting wisps of thought, but seeing now what fills these notebooks makes me curious as to what things have been lost from before, and now more recently in these Lost Laundry Scrolls.

Anybody know a good record preservation or restoration scholar?

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

This is about how I feel right now. It looks happy, even though things are about to get pretty crazy for it. The French Toast that resulted was delicious. Have you ever tried putting butter and powdered sugar on French Toast? What a revelation that was! Delicious.

So graduation is here, and the undergraduate portion of my life is about to come to a close. Whew! A little longer than we'd planned, but who plans on getting sick? So what's next? These are some possibilities:

1. Find employment in the Church Education System
2. Pursue a career elsewhere in either Church History or maybe some other curriculum or writing division (whatever's available I guess).
3. Find a career in the creative writing division of Hallmark or a similar company.
4.... Whatever is out there...

Additional schooling may be in the future, but not immediate.
Whatever the case, things are sure to prove interesting for our little family.

For now, a little brother is getting married this week, a mother is having her birthday tomorrow, and a graduation is occurring (Friday?). :)